Monthly Archives: December 2006


Glowing bright white haze.  Windows frosted over.  Presents are starting to accumulate under the tree.
Some for me.  Some for him.  Some for the cats.

I can’t seem to get well and the constant fatigue is starting to eat away at my spirits.  I haven’t had a true appetite in a week though I continue to eat small meals when and where I should.

I want to ride my bike and run but I keep driving to work thinking that barring myself from the freezing temperatures is the right thing to do.  At some point taking care of my spirit is going to overcome my commitment to taking care of my lungs.  I need to see action, and soon.

Portland continues to steal my heart – I haven’t seen a winter like this in years.  Good, solid rain followed by days of shiny, freezing frost.  I love it all.  In fact, I am dreading the end of the cold season.

The next three days will be overly full of work, errands, projects, and more work.  I’ll be ready for the break that is coming.

Cheery McCheer-Pants,



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Three Peak Morning

We can see our breath.
It is 33 degrees.

We’re climbing up Rocky Butte and I’m sucking Sam’s wheel because there is no other way I’m going to get up this hill. I am also sucking air. My nose is oozing snot and I take a moment to wipe it on the absorbent part of my cycling glove. My throat is full of phlem and I try to clear it, disrupting my breathing. I stand up on the pedals and stroke slowly, like working a stair climber at the gym.

My lungs are on fire and just when I think I’m going to step off the bike, the grade mellows a bit and I sit back down to catch my breath. I am trying to get my heart to come back inside my chest.

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